Tuesday, November 29, 2011

I am ~ written by me


I am looking ahead , at this journey that I am facing
I am looking within, at this love that I am embracing
I am taking this chance, the one that I have been given
I am creating this life, the one that I am living
I am following my heart, my guiding light I'll always follow
I am welcoming brand new changes, with every new tomorrow
I am opening my hearts lock, he's the one who holds the key
I am following my path, leading me where I am meant to be
I am believing trustingly in love, every part of it is true
I am exactly where I am meant to be, when I am right next to you

~If nothing ever changed, there would never be butterflies~


Sunday, November 27, 2011

.::I Promise::.

I promise to fight for you,
compromise for you and sacrifice for you and our love,
With all of my heart.

I love you this much to miss you incredibly when we are apart,
No matter what length of time it may be, regardless of the distance
or situation.

I love you this much to believe in our love and
our relationship, to stand by you through the worst of times and the best of times,
to have faith in our strength as a couple
and to never, ever, give up on us.

I promise to always be by your side, with gentle words and a loving touch,
to never judge you or doubt, to always encourage and inspire your
dreams and goals, I promise to always let you be you when you are with me.

I promise to spend the rest of my life with you loving you and accepting you
for who you are, I promise to be there
when you need me or want me, to remain faithful and true
to you and what we have together.

I promise to never want to leave you or live without you,I promise my heart eternally
belongs to you, forever, heart and soul.

This I promise you, I love you this much

Monday, November 21, 2011

.::Still::.

Even after all these years
 even after how close we have become
even after all the love we have shared
he still gives me butterflies
just like the first day that we met 


Sunday, November 20, 2011

Our Fate~ written by me

Many people throw around the word "Fate". But I don't believe some people actually know or understand what the word Fate really means.

FATEthe universal principle or ultimate agency by which the order of things is presumably prescribed; the decreed cause of events; time/ that which is inevitably predetermined; destiny/a prophetic declaration of what must be.

Some people like to use the word Fate carelessly,randomly,incorrectly. They can throw the word Fate into an explanation of events or occurrences, without any viable reasoning to do so.  They irrationally force the word Fate into trying to justify mistakes,errors and things that just simply didn't work out.  That isn't what Fate is at all.

               I have my own view and definition of Fate. I believe that Fate has certainly played a large part of my life, past and present, and I have a deep understanding of its meaning and the purpose of my pathway it has lead me on, the path that I am traveling on today. Relationships are revolved around Fate in every way possible. The things we say, the things we do, the way we love~it all surrounds and evolves around the outcome~our Fate. Fate is what brings two people together, and it is also what tears two people apart. Its all part of the plan.
             Along with Fate we must endure lessons in order for fate to flourish and roll out the carpet for our destiny. Lessons are a must for Fate to prevail. Everyone has their own lessons, or mistakes as they are better known. Everyone has their own mistakes that teach us of uncovering our true selves, our true feelings, and also our true awaiting Fate. In relationships, there is a line between Fate and human error, but some fail to see that, and that is where the lessons come into play. For instance, many people in relationships are forced apart by situations, events, or simple curiosity. It happens. It's hard, it hurts, and like any warm blooded human being the process of trying to "move on" is often times seeked out in order to allude the pain or cover the hurt. It's natural. We run to find the "fix" to fill our void of losing what we loved so dearly, in hopes to heal the hurt. The next awaiting victim to fill that void becomes our next partner in a relationship. Hey, they are there, they care, so it will work for now, right?
              No. Not when Fate is involved. The fix relationship is great at first, they take your mind off the last love for awhile and jump when you say jump. Who wouldn't be happy with that! It's the wonderful "new" feeling that comes along with any relationship...for awhile...until the mask begins to hurt and begins to not fit the right way anymore. That new fix is not serving their purpose any longer. The heart longs for the familiar love and connection it had beforehand and the relationship they currently have dwindles, the two become distant and unconnected and the relationship slowly begins to fade. When someone is always on your mind and always in your heart and the love the two shared never really went away, how could one possibly stay committed to someone else and give them all they have from their heart and soul? They can't. It just isn't possible. If someone isn't fully  honest with who they are with, cheats on them as well, isn't giving them all they have heart and soul and isn't who they truly are when they are around them, what on earth would make anyone believe that those two people were brought together by Fate or that sort of relationship has anything to do with Fate at all? It doesn't. 
                       The heart only has room for one, some may come and visit and spark interest and stir up emotions,some may also stay for a short while,  but ultimately, the heart only holds true to one.  These things, from my experiences, are what I believe to be true. If you let someone go, and pursue a relationship with another, but all you can do is think about the person you let go and all your heart tells you to do is turn around and go back to who it holds dear, then that is Fate nudging you. Often times people try to ignore those nudges. They try to set aside the emotions and they try to conceal it by continuously filling the void with someone else, but then Fate starts to push harder. Pushing and pushing and pushing, But eventually Fate will without a doubt push you right back into the direction it wants your heart to go,the place you left, to the person it wants to love, and there isn't a damn thing anyone can do about it.
        Fate is going to lead us where we are truly meant to be, Fate makes us follow our hearts and brings us back to who we are meant to love and give our love to, who we are meant to give our hearts to... or who already has had our heart all along. I believe this with all of my heart.
               After all, Fate has lead me to where I am today. I'm back on this path where my heart and his has been pushing to return to since the moment it mistakenly veered off path. Fate has been the reason past relationships have failed. Even when trying, continuously trying, Fate WILL tear two people apart in order to bring back together those who are meant to be together. That is exactly what Fate has done, and here we are, together.
              Would I go back and change things if I could? Of course. But I am grateful for all the mistakes we have both endured because those mistakes are what makes us appreciate and value what we have missed, what we have been waiting for for so long and the incredible love,closeness and passionthat we have in each other now. It allows us to see the deep connection and unbreakable love that keeps two people connected through time and distance, all this time, the Fate that has kept us connected from day one.
            So yes, I believe in Fate with all my heart and soul. I'm blessed to say that Fate has brought us back together and he is and always has been the love of my life, my soul mate, my puzzle piece that completes me, the one who holds my heart,my future, my everything.
      This is where we are meant to be.
This is our Fate

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Heaven~ Bryan Adams

Oh thinkin' about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free
Now nothing can take you away from me
We've been down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me comin' back for more

And baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

Oh once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Bring you up when you're feelin' down
Now nothin' can change what you mean to me
Oh there's lots that I could say
But just hold me now
'Cause our love will light the way

And Baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

I've been waitin' for so long
For somethin' to arrive
For love to come along
Now our dreams are comin' true
Through the good times and the bad
I'll be standin' there by you

And baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven, heaven

You're all that I want
You're all that I need

We're in heaven
We're in heaven
We're in heaven
<3

Thursday, November 10, 2011

~Our Love Story~ photo taken by me

~Everyone wants to find that fairytale love story~
~I've found mine with you~

photo taken by me

11-11-11

Happy Birthday Ciera Rain
11-11-11
My beautiful brown eyed baby girl







Sunday, November 06, 2011


{{ I simply love him, with all of my heart and soul }}

{{ I'll simply follow my heart, wherever it may lead }}

{{ my heart is simply his, forever his to hold }}

{{ I know with all my heart, we are simply meant to be }}

Tuesday, November 01, 2011